Us

When I am down and depressed and nothing around seems working right, there’s one medicine that makes me feel better; I will myself to think about ‘us’ and the times that we have spent together. As the memories come streaming in, a slow smile gradually creeps in and I feel better. When I get tired after a hard day and try looking for reason as to why the hell should I move on to the next day, then there’s one dream that gives me the reason to carry on, that of ‘us’ coming together again……all five of us. At this moment we are spread in 4 different places – 3 different countries and 4 different cities in all. We are still very much in touch with each other, but nothing compares to the blast we have when we all get together, each of us weirdoes in our own unique ways. And anyway, phone and email are hardly replacements for meeting up in person!
What had initially brought us together in first year of college was our common habit of walking from college to the bus stop, a 25-30 mins walk…there were other modes of transport like auto etc obviously, but we preferred walking. That used to be our unwinding session after a ‘hard and tiring’ day in college. All types of totally silly, crappy and utterly nonsense observations, thoughts and ideas used to be exchanged. There used to be a lot of other friends too then…Whether it would be a hot summer afternoon or a stormy day, examination day or not, we would never take the 5 mins auto ride, but walk all the way back. I am not too good as far as road sense is concerned, and my friends used to be (infact still are) my guide. They would grumble at my lack of road sense and at the same time make sure that I reach home safely.
There’s a saying that it takes a lot of trust to share your dreams with somebody else. One reason why we enjoy each others company I guess is that, we trust each other with our dreams. We never thought twice before sharing any of our thoughts, never measured the length of what is being said. It feels so very comfortable and relaxing with them around, cause I can just be myself and stop bothering about everything else.
It’s not that everything has been rosy all the way so far. We are five different persons with five different brains after all. Just as we have been through highs together, we have also faced lows. Such lows that honestly, there have been times when I feared that maybe, this is it…there’s no getting back together…But surprisingly, we have come together again. I don’t regret those times either, cause I feel that it’s more because of the lows that we have faced, that we have come together stronger than ever. Now, after almost 6 and a half years of being together, I feel confident (and I think the others feel the same way too) that no matter what happens, we will stick together and that even if I err, I won’t be misunderstood. It’s easy to say such things, but it takes years to build up this belief and the confidence and sense of security that this belief gives is immense.

I intend to force the other four to read this, since this post is for them. But I have serious doubts if I’ll be successful. Three of us are avid readers, but other than me, of the other two, one is so busy that she hardly gets time to eat and sleep….. and the other one is suffering from serious lack of concentration in everything these days as it’s summer in the country he is now in, and it seems, women there feel the heat a bit too much :-p! Now, of the other two left, the one in US does have this ambition that someday, someway he will read something…but that ambition has not been satisfied yet. And as for the other one, the last book read was Rapunzel!